My relationship with mornings has been tenuous for most of my life.
The tentacles of depression that release their grip in sleep tend to regain their strength in the vulnerable transitional minutes and hours of morning.
But this morning I realized things have shifted.
Our sleepy, frozen 10-block stumble to the gym was a few minutes later than usual, so the sun was rising just as we arrived for our morning torture… err… exercise. A sunrise that stopped us in our tracks, both of us breathing a wide-eyed “WHOAaaa!”
Then when we entered the gym, the [omg gorgeous] owner grinned at us, pointed to the sunrise, and disappeared. I found him on the other side of the gym sipping his coffee, quietly watching the sunrise reds and oranges grow deeper, richer, and more stunning across the entire 180° view.
“I’ve stopped training sessions for this” he said, talking to me but still focused on the sunrise. ”I used to just glance at this, then hurry back to work. But now I stop sessions and tell my clients, ‘Wait. Look at this. I don’t care if you have a problem with it, come look at this,’ because I know the best part only lasts for a few minutes.”
As my heart melted into gratitude, I realized that over the past year or so, morning and I have built an alliance: if I take time to notice, appreciate, and spend intentional time with her, she will help me build my day on beauty instead of fear; expression instead of depression.
And just in case I didn’t get the message, my iPod served up “One More Morning” by Steve Winwood. The lyrics speak for themselves, and the music puts me over the (good) edge, so here are both:
In the sky, light is coming
So glad we all have this day
We all want one more morning
Just to know the night won’t stay
Lift my eyes to the dawning
To see the life start again
Just to see one more morning
Just to feel it all begin
Just to have this day and life starting all over
For all it may bring
A blessing on everything
And one more song I can sing…
“for all it may bring… a blessing on everything … and one more song I can sing.” Amen.